Back to student life.

Im back to school!! The same school which i graduated about two years' back? The same school which holds so many memories for me and friends. The same block. The same lecturers. Everything is still the same. Except for the classmates. But im sure have already adjusted and adapted to this new environment. :)

I received messages from working colleagues back in the hospital every single day for the first two weeks. They came over to have dinner with me. They sent me morning messages wishing me a good start for each day. And the list goes on. Now that one month has passed, they are still doing the same! This is indeed a bond that i can never look for in other working environment. Thank you all! This is one of the reasons that i will stay on in this field of nursing, insyaAllah.

Not having to mention, first few people who supported me right from the beginning of the successful application were of cos my family and mr bf. Alhamdulillah. I'll do my best in this, insyaAllah. Keep me in ur prayers!

Happy weekends all!

Newlyweds!

Alhamdulillah. Kakak's majlis went well.
They are now husband and wife! Alhamdulillah.

We will be sending the newlyweds off to the airport for their honeymoon ltr on after subuh. I better wrap their gift soon and get some powernap.

Not forgetting those who came down to kakak's majlis either on saturday, sunday or both, thank you soo much for ur presence and prayers!
Syukran jazilan.

Till we meet again insyaAllah! :)

First family wedding of the year!

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

May u be in the best state of imaan n health insyaAllah.

As we are counting down the hours to kakak's big day, i know i will miss her. There wont be someone to sleep beside me. There wont be someone who makes me scream my lungs out in the middle of the night to just play a prank by placing lil bro's toy alligator on my body while asleep. There wont be someone who will wake me up to accompany to the 7-11 just to get a cup of slurpee in the middle of the night. Allah, i know im gonna miss all those.

To my dearest one and only kakak, may u haf a blissful marriage filled w mawaddah wa rahmah. I know there will be challenges but im sure both of u will be able to overcome them w patience.

Im sure you will make a great wife insyaAllah. And a great in law to the new family. Amiin.


Selamat pengantin baru! :)
May u be isteri yang solehah!

Amiin amiin ya rabbal alamiin. :')


Note to kakak: Bsk jgn jd crybaby tauu. U need to maintain or else both u n me will be enough to flood the multi- purpose hall! Haha.


*بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكم وجمع بينكما في خير*

Ur growing too fast!

Happy bdae my lil one!

May Allah always protect u.. Its been four years since we haf u in our lives. Im sure mama is fortunate to haf u.. Ur the reason for making our lives lively. U never fail to surprise us with what ur capable of doing every day.
May ur love grow fonder for mama, not forgetting ur ibu for the sake of Allah..

May u grow up to be the khalifah of Allah.. Amiin. Pls know that all of us are loving u every second..

The big P!

PASSED!!

Special thanks to mama, papa, kakak and boy for the never ending support and prayers. Mr bf, dinie and matiin for coming all the way down earlier on from work/home just to make me feel better. Thank youu! :)

But im sure theres still a long way to go..
Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim~

That special trip.

Thank you for the awesome weekend over with ur family!

Alhamdulillah. It was indeed something special cos that was the first time ever mama allowed to go out w a family to jb.

Thank u for the surprise bdae celebration, sharing of bedroom with ur sister and nenek and the never-ending-eating-sessions. Not forgetting the lotsa lotsa conversations held w your parents. And you, for making me at ease around ur family. Hee. But i guess it should all go to ur mom for inviting me over and ur dad for fetching me frm home. :) a big big thank you to both of them! May Allah bless them with best state of imaan, health and happiness.

Till then, tke care and haf a good time!
May things be made easy for us, insyaAllah. And may this 21st bdae be a more meaningful one not just for me and family but for u too. Amiin.

The wait is finally over.

My lil bro is alrdy at home. Still slightly drowsy. But its okay cos we were told that the effect would last till nxt afternoon.

We were called in to the waiting area again and briefly explained by the Dr on the findings. Its too much for his age. But i noe there are reasons for this. And im sure he is one lil boy who will be able to overcome all these. InsyaAllah.

Unexpected, i was given the opportunity to be the one entering the recovery area to receive my lil bro. Mayb cos i appeared anxious at that point of time. Papa willingly told me to see him after we were informed that lil bro had been pushed out of the theatre and only one was allowed to enter.

Speechless. Saw him crying on the bed still semi conscious w the monitorings. There was only one thing i wanted to do. I asked permission to carry him. And im glad they were understanding enough to let me do so. After some time my dad was called in and we brought him to the recovery area in the day surgery after discharged by the major OT team.

Im humbled to have my family during this crucial time to be by lil bro's side. Mama making her way to and fro during her breaktime from Siglap to KKH. Kakak rushing down after meeting her client at Vivo with brother. And papa of cos took a day off from work. May Allah nvr stop showering us with His love and guidance. Amiin.

To this lil love of mine, may Allah reward u for all these that u've gone tru. I must say that ur such a strong lil boy having gone tru more than what a barely 4-year old would have.

Thank you Allah for making everything happened so smoothly. And Mizah, thnk u for ur prayers and msgs throughout my wait. Mr bf too for the msgs that u managed to send from camp.

My special lil one.

Salam!
My lil love is now undergoing a procedure in the OT. Looking at him all playful and suddenly having to go tru the sedation prior to the anaesthesia itself made me shiver. I know i have to stay strong for my parents. Especially papa being there witnessing the whole process.

I noe my lil love is a special one and thats why he is the chosen one to go through all these at such a tender age. Not to mention the tiny size of his.

Changing him into the OT gown was alrdy so hard. Whats more administering the sedative with my own hands. Carrying him from the waiting room to the induction room. Seeing him all drowsy and eventually knocked out after the anaesthesia was given. Allah..:( no words can describe the exact feeling i had. It is definitely different seeing ur love one being the patient on the operating table. It was like a sharp pain piercing through the heart.

Alhamdulillah i was given the priviledge to be able to accompany him till the OT. Now as we are waiting anxiously for it to be over, may our prayers be close in his heart.

May he be strong enough to go tru this. Amiin.

A mom's love.

Assalammualaikum!

My mom is preparing rendang right now. At this hour? Yes, cos mama wanna make sure the meat is tender enough for everyone to eat tomorrow (i mean later, since its already past midnight :D) And another reason is cos she wants us to have it for breakfast and can be packed along to work if needed.

I am blessed to have a mom like her.
She might not know the existence of this blog of mine but i guess it's ok for as long as she knows that we love her very much. To start it off, she's a mother who has been giving her best for us.
To make sure our needs are met. To make sure we have food at home when she's out working.
She has sacrificed alot just to make sure we receive the best.
She doesn't know the meaning of being tired.
And one thing for sure, her family is placed before herself.

Allah.. Pls protect my mama and grant her the best state of imaan and health :(

My mom has always been my confidante. My listener. My bestfriend in everything. I can always consult her in anything. She doesn't give her opinions straight away. Instead, she would listen and agree to what i wanna do for as long it doesn't affect my akhlak. She would nod and praise me when ive done something right. However, when i was faced with times that things didn't go our way, she would not put the blame on me. In fact, she would remind me that Allah is testing me to be patient and not give up in life.

There were times during my schooling days (even when i was already in poly) when i dread going back to school after a term break, just cos i felt too attached to mama at home. I would hide myself in the mussolah and teared thinking of her. Then i would give her a call or leave her a msg randomly asking if she was already at home. Just to make sure i got to hear from her.

Up till today, i would give her a ring just to make sure i keep her updated of my whereabouts. Even after work; to let her noe dat im done and will be making my way home soon.

I noe everybody's mom is the best and mine is no exception. Alhamdulillah..

Now that Ramadhan is coming real soon, im praying that we live long enough to meet this blessed month and make it a better one from the previous years', insyaAllah.

Till then, may Allah forgive us for all the wrongdoings that we have done. And i seek ur forgiveness too if ive done or said anything that might not please anyone in any way. Afwaan.

Till the next post, biiznillah! :)

Salaam!


He has been in and out of camp for a month now. I couldnt remember how i managed to survive the initial two weeks of his confinement. Glad it was the past, though i noe there will be many more to come when he starts his fieldcamps and trainings in the future.

Till then, haf a good Wednesday evening yar? :)

W'slm.

She passed by Al-Istighfar; the mosque

where she first heard him reciting the adzan

during the month of Ramadhan back in 2006.

This will be the fifth Ramadhan together, insyaAllah.

the start of a new hurdle.

Assalamualaikum wr wb.

Today marked the official day i graduated from my sch!! Alhamdulillah. There were so many times i wanted to give up back then cos i wasnt sure if it was the right line for me. It wasnt cos of the jobscope though. It was rather the thought of having to wear uniform to work. The thought of having to make major decisions in people's lives. And the list went on cos i would always find more excuses to leave the course.


Suprisingly, i wasnt the only one feeling that way.


It was indeed tests after tests that i was put into. He tested me one after another. I knew that was just to make me a strong-er person in life. I knew He is always there for me. And will always be there for me. Eventually, He made me decide what i wanted to pursue from now. He answered my prayers and i got into psy nursing. He gave me what i want.

I decided to post this cos it has made me reflect and ponder on my life journey so far. I started dreading myself to work cos of the people in the workplace. But He has made me realised that i would be able to make a difference; even if it's the slightest in one way or another.

To all my fellow friends, thanks for always supporting one another during the three years in sch. Im sure gonna miss all of u. I hope that we can be schmates in the future for our adv dip :D

I thank Him for giving me the strength all along. Not to mention, my parents esp mama. And everyone else who have always been my pillar of support.

Not forgetting, my atok ayah. If he was still around, i would be able to share this joy with him. He had always been dear to my heart though we dint meet that often. And he still is. Tempatkannya di kalangan hamba-hambaMu yg dikasihi, ya Allah. amiin.

Till then, a note for all of you. Never be disheartened if things go the way u dint want. Just dont give up and doa for the best. Not to forget, the endless effort that u need to put in to get to where u want. And, be sincere in everything u do. He is indeed the best planner of all. :)

Allah akan bersama orang2 yg berusaha dan benar dalam segala urusan.

Wassalam. Till we meet again.

Wallahualam.

dirty lil secret.

So, she decided to unblock him on her contact list after ages.
No point keeping the anger.
And no point wanting to know the reason for all that happened.
Cos it was all the past.
She is more than contented in her present life.
She is sure this is the right thing to do.
To just forgive and forget.

Pls forgive us ya Rabbii.

the meet up with the in- laws-to-be.

assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, my one and only sister is getting engaged insyaAllah this June. The ta'aruf session last night wasnt just an ordinary one. In fact, everything was discussed there and then. Date. Time. Number of guests from the male's. And also the dowry.

SubhanaAllah. He is the best planner of all kaann. See how easily things get in placed for her when He permits..=D cos He wants it to be arranged this way. Alhamdulillah, i noe she has been waiting for this day as much as i do.

*Kakak, im pretty sure the time will be even faster when it gets nearer to ur big day. Im gonna miss u. But my love will always be there for u kayy.*

Till then,
ilalliqo'!
Doa for my sister k? =)
And to those sitting for exams soooon, all the best. Selamat berjuang! :D

patience and tests.

salam alaik.

I must admit that life has been full of tests these few days; as for now. He has been testing me in every aspect and i noe it is simply cos He wants me to be strong. Im praying for strength to go through all these hurdles, obstacles, etc. And He answered me by putting me inmore tests. So that i will be stronger.

Patience is a virtue. I know i hafto be patient. It is just sooo so hard to have the patience when its alrdy at the peak of my life. It seemed impossible to look things at the brighter side. Until one moment I almost gave up in everything. But He didnt leave me alone. In fact, He guided me along and gave me extra support from him.

So much happened. Alhamdulillah, He made me/us realised the beauty of it all.
Indeed, fasobrun jamil.

This is something id like to share and remind myself.
If u feel like giving up in life, try closing ur eyes, recite some dzikir and tell urself ur not alone. U will feel better knowing that Allah is always w us. Always. He is just waiting for us to ask from Him.

"O you who believe! Seek help in patience and as-solat. Truly, Allah is with the as-sobirun." 2:153.

Till we meet again.
Fi amanillah.

-___-

The so-merepek-nonsense was so-tak-perlu last night.
I was being too sensitive for NO apparent reason.
And i pulled u in to play along with me. Sorry.

Don't u doubt me cos i've never had doubts bout u
and it shall remain that way.
I believe this is just part of another hurdle
that we hafto go through; together.

Never stop us from loving u, ya Allah.
Let our hearts always be filled with Ur love.
Cos Ur love is our guidance in life.


Things happen for a reason and He knows best.

To you: thanks for the listening ears.

post-night shift.

im back. haha.
time passed by fast for night shift but tiring. it really drained the energy outta u although the workload was practically nothing as compared to day shift.
first night; i alrdy looked like a zombie even before supper. -_- it was a night busy with answering of call bells.
second night was better maybe cos i had more den enuff sleep during the day.
suprisingly, i was fresh and all awaked on the third night till the next morning.
but i still do wonder how police officers and some others manage to survive night shifts.
can u imagine how heavy our eyes were after having rice for supper?
but we survived those three nights though! =D

alhamdulillah. just 6 weeks to go, baybehh.

kakak is out for a run with frens. which means, i hafto sleep alone. =/
k bye.
assalamu'alaikum.


she was having palpitations when she saw him approaching.
one thing for sure, they had a quality time spent together though it was really short.
she knew it was all worthwhile for the surprise visit.
thanks ya Rabb. she thanked him for making this possible too.

pre-night shift.

Assalamu'alaikum.

Happy 2010! =D
May this year b a bttr one n may we b given the strength to overcome the challenges ahead. Amiin.

Thanks to all for ur du'a n msg yar. Alhamdulillah, im feeling much better. Or should i say i have recovered? Hah. Just dat Mr Dr said i cant tke spicy and hot food just yet in order not to overstress the tonsils. *dia pon nk rehaaat.*

So, im gg for first night shift tonite. Excited plus dunnoe wat to expect. =/
One thing for sure, im gonna stuff lotza food in my bag. I hafto eat to mke myself awake, okayy. *d same reason used during exams.haa.* 3 nights straight n im gonna look like a zombie on Fri morning. Hahah

And and, fetched mama from work semalam. Excited la katekaan. More like a menyebok lagi ade laa. Hah. Takot nanti ade separation anxiety la at night, so seized every moment to be w her. *sheeshk*

k, im gonna tire myself out before gg for a nap ltr. hah.

Happy New Year!
Salam Ma'al Hijrah! :)


k bye, nak sambong buat ini research. =/

sorry for this. im gonna membebel like nobody's business. and they are not related in any way. =/

there are so many events and talks going on which i cant attend. im not blaming on my roster though. but it seems quite a while since i last attended an usrah and met the sisters and the rest. cant deny that im missing those moments. and needing those moments real badly especially at this point of time.

my head has been aching since morning mayb cos ive been thinking of the days to come for PRCP. i just need it to end fast; smoothly. with gooood grades. i spent my entire day revising on stoma care, some medical terms which im unsure of and also wound products. kinda paranoid over wats gg to happen in the ward tml. which led me to iron my uniforms as early as 6pm eventhough im on afternoon shift tml.

it feels different when u have ur own lecturer as ur CI. maybe cos we are too dependent on them, knowing that they will guide us along and teach us which we are not sure of. being left alone under the care of the hospital, we have to meet their expectations. furthermore, this is the final attachment as a student and we ought to function like a staff nurse.

like SCI said, "this is not the time to practice the skills but to perfect them."
i must admit that there are alot of catching-ups for us to do.
glad that CI has been a patient one. alhamdulillah. :)

anw, congrats mama on ur new post at werk!
its gonna be tough to look after the nursery-cry-babies first few days when school reopens but im sure u can do it.:) cos u are the chosen one by Him.

till then,
good night, lovelies!


hope everything is gonna be alright on ur side yeah.
ill always be here for u, like always.

sobahul khair!

a week's down, alhamdulillah. the expectations are just too high for the first week. knowing that we didnt have any hands-on for some of the protocols, they expect us to observe and learn on our own. but we survived! :)
hope everything is going to be alright in the next 11 weeks. CI has been helpful by giving us some tips and topics to read on. we will brush up on that and buck up, yeah :)


if it is meant to be this way, let it be.
she has done her part.
she is just gonna let things go own its own course.
cos she knows He is the best planner of all.